Holidays suck

I hate Christmas. I am not really sure when this happened and I became a Grinch but I sure hate it now. I am quite positive at some point I was a happy little child with bright eyes and wonder on Christmas morning. Now I am a groggy 37 year old shuffling through the house in a freaking housecoat fumbling for the coffee pot. Maybe its the pressure of getting the right gifts. I know, I know, save the lecture about how its about something totally different or religious or about the thought that counts. If you have ever seen actual disappointment on the faces of your children because you couldn't afford to get them what they really wanted or that fake "yes its been a good christmas mom" when they hardly had any gifts at all it might sour you to the holiday as well. Now, dont get me wrong, my kids arent spoiled and don't expect anything, but they secretly have the wish that for once mom will find some money somewhere or surprise them. I am sick of not being able to at least get them one thing on their lists. They dont ask for cars or computers or anything, but since everything costs so much now they might as well. Okay, so the gifts aside, maybe thats not why I hate it. Maybe its the family pressure. Yes, you have to get up and get going on what is generally a cold miserable day. Then you have to make the jolly holiday rounds with a bunch of people you rarely see (who might not be expecting gifts for their kids from you, but they certainly got your kids something...oh guilt!). Not to mention I am always introduced by my occupation, someone always has some comment to make, and someone always wants to talk to me about diet and exercise while I cram food down my gullet. I dont need self control to diet over the holidays, I always have some well wishing fool watching every bite I eat. (Oh yes, I can eat pie sometimes too!!! Thats right?!!! Its the holidays, dont you dare tell me Ill get fat!!! AAAAAAAH) Or maybe its just the fact that everyone everwhere says "Have a merry Christmas" or something to that effect. Stop telling me how to live!!!! Okay so seriously, I may have exaggerated a little bit but I still cant help but hate the holidays.